Belajar untuk Mencoba Ikhlas

Ikhlas...

Satu kata yang sederhana,tapi susah banget buat diaplikasikan dalam kehidupan..

Satu kata yang gw coba pelajarin beberapa bulan belakangan ini..

Satu kata yang berkali-kali ditulis dalam banyak ayat-ayat Al-Qur’an,dan betapa penting makna kata itu...

Dalam beberapa bulan ini,gw selalu belajar tentang ilmu ikhlas,seperti mengikhlaskan seseorang???..

Seseorang yang dulu deket sama gw,tapi dia justru sebaliknya makin menjauh..lari dari kehidupan gw..

Tentu saja pertama kali tahu,bahwa dia lebih memilih orang lain daripada gw buat gw bener-bener sakit hati,ga terima,ngediemin dia selama berbulan-bulan,dengan maksud kalau gw bener-bener ga terima hati gw dipermainkan..

Lelah??iya,pasti..

Gw pengen berheti ngediemin dia,berhenti ga cemburu kalau dia lebih deket sama orang lain ketimbang gw,berhenti ga respect kalau dia ngajak bercanda,berhenti pura-pura ga liat dia kalau kebetulan kita berpapasan,dan berhenti dari semua yang bikin dia mungkin berkata-kata dalam hatinya kalau sikap gw aneh.

*Maafin gw,ga seharusnya gw begitu..

Tapi kalau inget flashback..

Dia..

Yang dulu suka manggil gw Frida...

Ngabisin waktu bareng..

Kasih gw info-info penting..

Hobi bikin gw ketawa..

..gw sakit hati !!! lo tega kasih harapan gw begitu! Lo tega bikin gw pindah schedulle supaya gw ga ketemu terus-terusan sama lo. Lo tega bikin gw ditatap dengan tatapan aneh sama temen-temen gw.gw bener2 benci sama lo!!

..gw pengen bilang

*ya,gw udah seharusnya ngerelain lo,dan lo berhak bahagia..maaf,selama ini gw belum bisa jadi temen yang baik,yang selalu support lo..karena gw sayang sama lo,

At least...

Dari semua kejadian ini pasti tersimpan hikmah..

Dari waktu yang terus berputar,pasti sang waktu juga yang akan menyembuhkannya..

Gw banyak belajar..

Sekarang gw udah bisa menerimanya sedikt-sedikit..

Gw akan belajar jadi temen yang baik buat lo,dukung lo dari belakang walaupun mungkingw ga bisa tegar-tegar banget..

Gw mohon,jangan bikin luka lama yang belum sembuh jadi terluka lagi ya..

Keep smilling for u..fighting!!^^

Taylor Swift – Speak Now

I am not the kind of girl

Who should be rudely barging in on a white veil occasion

But you are not the kind of boy

Who should be marrying the wrong girl

I sneak in and see your friends

And her snotty little family all dressed in pastel

And she is yelling at a bridesmaid

Somewhere back inside a room

Wearing a gown shaped like a pastry

This is surely not what you thought it would be

I lose myself in a daydream

Where I stand and say

[Chorus:]

Don’t say “Yes”, run away now

I’ll meet you when you’re out of the church at the back door

Don’t wait or say a single vow

You need to hear me out

And they said, “Speak now”

Fond gestures are exchanged

And the organ starts to play

A song that sounds like a death march

And I am hiding in the curtains

It seems I was uninvited by your lovely bride to be

She floats down the aisle like a pageant queen

But I know you wish it was me,

You wish it was me

Don’t you?

[Chorus]

Don’t say “Yes”, run away now

I’ll meet you when you’re out of the church at the back door

Don’t wait or say a single vow

Your time is running out

And they said, “Speak now”

Ooh, la la

Ooh, ooh

I hear the preacher say, “Speak now or forever hold your peace”

There’s the silence, there’s my last chance

I stand up with shaky hands, all eyes on me

Horrified looks from everyone in the room

But I’m only looking at you

I am not the kind of girl

Who should be rudely barging in on a white veil occasion

But you are not the kind of boy

Who should be marrying the wrong girl

[Chorus]

And you’ll say “Let’s run away now,

I’ll meet you when I’m out of my tux at the back door”

Baby, I didn’t say my vows

So glad you were around

When they said, “Speak now”